The Transformation

The time is right im gonna pack my bags and take that journey up the road because over the mountains i see the bright sun shining and i believe ill find my happiness inside the glow. I dont know waht else to do in this blog but be real. The pain that i feel a daily basis is enough to warrant a morphine drip to the soul. My whole life i have just wanted to be sucessful and get away from this city. I love the people that surround me but it is important to understand i can no longer live here. I want to go somewhere far away from the pain away from my parents. This is my one chance to hit the reset button. I have torn my soul to pieces looking for that extra ounce of strength to press that damn button for years and i found it. If that means i leave zola behind thats just another layer that i shed with this move. Some may say im am running away from my problems but the truth is i am going to a place where i can shine where i have people who love me unconditionally and are willing to shelter me untill i can again stand on my own. I have never blogged this and its because prior to last monday i didnt mean it but here goes... i hate my parents from the depths of my soul they have left me broken and disillusioned with the future. While i am grateful for them giving me life i will move change my name and never return. It has occured to me that it is time to live my life for me and only me with no regrets. I will shoot for the moon and even if i fall i will land among the stars. Too many tears have been shed to many dreams have been shattered. The time has arrived. As my tears run out and my cheeks slowly dry to the mac matte finish that the world has grown accustomed to, my self confidence grows and i stand a little taller and when i finally stand tall enough to see over my mountain i will be blinded by the prosperity that god has in store for me.



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Now playing: India Aire - Beautiful
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SMASH INTO YOU

Head down as i watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
Eyes shut, i find myself in love racing the earth
And i soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

I wanna run, run smash into you
I wanna run, run, smash into you

Ears closed, what i hear the world just has to know
Cause' i know that what we have is worth first place in gold
And i soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

you guys when i tell you i have listened to this song in excess of thirty times in the last 2 days. I dont know maybe your not deep like me but i kno there is one person in my life that i just wanna take off like thoroughbred and run smash into him.So if you kno what i mean and this song does for you wha it does for me put your hand over you heart and sing along. And to that one person about whom this is written, baby i want to be soaked wit your love caause i kno that its within our grasp we just gotta reach out and grab it. I wanna love you in slow motion with my eyes closed like a steel coaster never knowing whats coming next and even thru all the loops twists and turns i kno im safe. Although there maybe so scary spots in the track i kno that we will make it where ever we end up running smash into each other. _ _ _ _ _ _ I love you!

Smash Into You - Beyoncé

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