IM MY MIND

So many times i have listened to Heather Headly's song "I'm my Mind" and wondered what could drive someone to write such a song. Many people listen to that very song and say to themselves huh never me! Well i used to be one of those people. But one day i met a man who shall remain nameless but those who know me know that there is not other. You see he walked into my life 3 months ago and i never looked back. The way i felt about him drove me to board up the door to my heart believing that no one else would ever tread the path to it nor cross the threshold into my soul. I never dreamed that it would be him...but walking out. Each day i walk this campus dressed to kill eyes lined hair sharp and waved but inside is an empty shell. Not a single remnant of the warmth that used to dwell within. Love is so powerful. I saw him tonight when he walked in the door my heart began to race i broke into a cold sweat as i beheld his his 6'4 frame and was entranced by his caramel skin. For 3 weeks i imagined what i would say to him at this very moment yet as i opened my mouth just to say hey i couldn't find the words. He spoke i reciprocated with a simple hello casual conversation was exchanged dancing around the words that sat perched on the tip of our tongues held firmly by pride. As he walked out the door i found the courage to say his name and humbly request that he call me because i wish to talk. So now i wait for the opportunity to express my heart and soul, to carefully remove my mask of contentment and tell this man, my man, my dream how i feel. I just wish there was a print out of my feelings so someone could read them to me to help me understand just how i feel. I'm so ambivalent, lost in a sea of words that speak volumes but mean nothing

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