Wednesday, August 19, 2009
The Silver lining
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
My Experience- By My Boy Tay
This is a poem frm the talent show in Denver CO during the retreat i attended so many wonderful friends i miss u guys future blog to coma about my experiences
It’s funny how an accidental needle prick can send you to the doctors, and then they tell you, “You’re sick.” It could’ve been the flu, pink eye, or hell let me get stung by a bee, But oooh no, I was sooo lucky…I caught HIV. Aint this some shit. I’m Track Captain, president of my class, but now everybody won’t see that, just the gay boy that’s gonna die fast. Feelings of pain & hurt with thoughts of death flooded my heart, I was scared, I felt alone, I didn’t know where to start. Inside me was a spy, an evil agent on the prowl, until that day, I never knew how much you could hate 3 letters, 2 consonants and that damn vowel! The “I” as in “I,” Have it & “I”, must live with it. If this is this is the reason I was born then mommy should had swallowed or spit. Dear God, there’s people killing, abusing, and bombing, just look at the TV, How dare you sit back and let this happen to me! My face was tough and my front was just as fake, but inside I was a mess & it was myself, I started to hate. God must had seen my struggle & sent me a me a hero, my medical teacher, an old grandma and a surgical pro. She said “Baby, what’s da matter; you haven’t been your crazy self. I couldn’t hold it any longer & told her of my health. She took a deep breath & smacked me in the head. She said “and you just gonna mope and let it strike you dead, baby, you may have HIV, but I got diabetes and that’s a wonder. Hell, If we don’t take care of ourselves, we both gonna be 6.ft under.” I took a deep breath & smiled a real smile, something that felt so good, it had been a while. She then said, “When God lets something happen to you, say ok and put it to work, don’t let it take over because it wants to lurk.” After that, I always think how bad my life could’ve been, like boys, HIV..I was just one big sin. Now, who would’ve thought that one day I would be, in the company of young wonderful adults that are positive and just because of HIV, which makes me more happy about the future whichever way it may go. But what does lil ole me know, I just wrote the here poem for a talent show.