In and Out of Time- Dr Maya Angelou

The sun has come.
The mist has gone.
We see in the distance...
our long way home.
I was always yours to have.
You were always mine.
We have loved each other in and out of time.
When the first stone looked up at the blazing sun
and the first tree struggled up from the forest floor
I had always loved you more.
You freed your braids...
gave your hair to the breeze.
It hummed like a hive of honey bees.
I reached in the mass for the sweet honey comb there....
Mmmm...God how I love your hair.
You saw me bludgeoned by circumstance.
Lost, injured, hurt by chance.
I screamed to the heavens....loudly screamed....
Trying to change our nightmares to dreams...
The sun has come.
The mist has gone.
We see in the distance our long way home.
I was always yours to have.
You were always mine.
We have loved each other in and out
in and out
in and out
of time.

Smokin a Cigarette Thinkin About the Past

Yesterday i stepped out on my porch to smoke little did i know when i walked out the door i had stepped out of a manhole in center of memory lane. My mind began to wonder to my exs past heartbreak and mistakes. I began to wonder it is me? Am i the bitch that everyone says i am. Am i too much to handle or am i simply choosing the same kind of men. But thats impossible they have been so unique and original in their own way. Yesterday i thought about someone that i hadn't thought on in a while third. I sat and cried and wondered why he had done me the way he had. Why he chose another over me. I was good to him i gave my best and it still wasn't enough. Its not fair. All my hope for true love is beginning to fade as i have watch all the relationships that gave me hope slowly dissolve and end. I want the American dream i don't want to be loose like everyone else i want to be faithful to a faithful man is that so much to ask? I guess ill be single for the rest of my life and I'm really not ok with that. I know you guys love me but i need that special love from a man who holds my heart. One day i pray but maybe this is how its suppose to be