SEXUALITY AN ELUSIVE CONCEPT

I caution my readers on this one, if your life ideals are shaped exclusively by your religion, you may wanna look away now. No w for those who are still with me and have some self directed thought lets get into the meat and potatoes. I want to pose a question...what is heterosexuality. Sexuality is one of the biggest issues in the political arena today, but what shapes sexuality. If you think about it is it still wrong? Some churches preach that being gay is just wrong and that it is possible to be delivered thought the power of Christ. I might lose some people on this but i say WHATEVER. Now those of you who have read my stuff know that my thoughts are always rooted in a truth i have found for myself. Praying to be straight is like being black and praying to be white. I was born this way and i dont think there is anything to change. There was a time when i served on a praise team at a certain church here in Charlotte i forced into believing that i had to change. I fasted i went into trance like meditation and prayer beseeching the blood of Christ to was away my impurities. There came a day when i truly believe the spirit of god came upon me and let me know that he loved me just as i am. Now onto those who never get the message that suppress their urges. Now maybe im wrong but i always learned that the thought was just as wrong as the action so if you think about a man to get up to do your wife is that wrong. Are you going to hell? I mean you followed the christian way, got married had kids and stopped messing with the same sex but... you fantasized? It is a common misconception that just because a man is married that he is following the christian way. that bull no man will be able to deny himself for the rest of his life. Now what about those who stop acting on their urges but never mess with the opposite sex. I don't thing a sovereign god like the one i serve would subject some individuals to a life of denial while the other 98% of the population lives a holy FULFILLING life. Being a homosexual is just as much a physical thing as it is a mind set. If your body reacts to a mans touch GUESS WHAT? so are you going to go to hell because you hedonistic id caused your sex to grow a the gently brush of a mans rear across your front as he squeezes by on the city bus or in the church pew. Now i happen to be a baptist but there seems to be a stark difference in the beliefs of Pentecostal churches on the issue of homosexuality however i think i may step on some toes so ill leave it at that. Please comment i want to know what you guys think but please be open minded its the key to life. I love you guys. i really just lived this topic with an ex of mine and i just really needed to share. shout out to Brandon Hughes for inspiring me.

Make Me Over - Tonex

BEAUTIFUL NIGHTMARES

You know how you meet someone and from that meeting it seems like something promising could materialize. The days turn into weeks, those to months and all appears to be running smoothly. O but there is always that one day the first time they don't call on their lunch break or he doesn't walk you to the car in the morning. That's the day when it becomes easy to slack off.suddenly your gorgeous sweet dream has become a beautiful nightmare. It always hurts when you invest your dream in someone start thinking about the future with them right by you side picking out drapes seeing which Mercedes would look good together in the driveway of your new home. in this person you see you future and wonder how you made it thru you past without them. Its in this security that you think all your dreams could come true. funny we never stop to think that nightmares are dreams too

SLOW MOTION - Karina Pasian