Thursday, July 7, 2011

RAGE

Im fighting, Fighting like im in the ring with tyson, or being mugged on a street corner;but im not fighting flesh and blood. there are so many emotions flooding in right now but the strongest of all is hate. Because:
I hate you like the gum on the bottom of a fresh pair of kicks, or the last drink i had before worshiping the porcelain god.
I hate you like the piece of ice that make me bust my ass, or the splinter that never seems to come out in one piece.
I hate you like the poor hate Americans.
I hate you like a dropped call of the bill that cut it off.
I hate you like a car owner hates the repo man.
I hate you lie a useless debit card.
I hate you like the one short nail that i broke last week.
I hate you like the tree hates the chainsaw or like a stream hates a damn.
i hate you like makeup hates oil, like a fresh perm hates water.
I hate you like an anorexic hate thanksgiving
The thought of you makes my entrails twist with disgust. I could just throw up my lunch, I want to tell you just how much i hate you but the bit of God that remains in me when i see you wont let me. I secretly wish i could pray the worst over you. I would pray that everything you ever lied to get crashes down around you, or  that those who love you leave you in the gutter with nothing. But most of all i would pray  that you die an old lonely fossil all alone with nothing but thoughts of your lies and deceit.
I sat here and stewed for hours and tried not to write this, but your reckless disregard for the well-being of others has left me numb to your struggle. Im trying to pray this anger off me but its not happening, its not working, i still hate you. I HATE YOU i cant say it enough bc my fingers seem to love the delicate waltz across my keys that create the words. God im sorry for this post….but i had to get it out…or i think i was going to explode #FUCKyouWITHaSMILE!