Reading the Fine Print

You know how sometimes you sign a contract and read the first and last line and simply skim the middle only 2 discover that a damming factor was hidden therein. I have a theory about love that is extremely similar to that situation. When we love we love blindly seeing the person we have before us and jumping ahead to the future never considering the struggle that comes between. New love never considers heartbreak forces of nature acts of god and lost favor with lady luck. No one ever tells you that you never completely recover from the pain and heartbreak. Can one ever really move on? Do you ever stop loving someone you factored into the rest of you existence only to have it snatched away like a bottle from a baby. I have come to the conclusion i will never recover from my most recent let down. Every time i see his picture i cry hear his name i tear up. I hate the memories i think back to the most perfect valentines day i ever had that once brought me such joy which now leaves a gaping hole in my chest. I think about the child that i grew attached to the man that i loved and cared for. i think of him at least once per day and it has been over for months will i ever recover. every time i think of what he is doing with himself now i am almost physically sick and my eyes fill with tears just thinking of the idea that the man who was once my betrothed is now someone else's husband but what am i to do? i guess im really paying for the things i didn't know the little things that people never tell you. This must be what its like when you read and understand the fine print in hindsight.